we went our different paths
searched for our new lifes
we did try, at least I did
I think you did too
but for me,
I failed time and time again...
what about you?

your life is such a mystery
I'd never know whats happening

but i know

its all not within my control
***

we met few times
though little to say
but, I couldn't stop thinking and

finding the right words to say
and what to do
or what not to do
to make the moments last
but it always ended
as if it never started
and the doubt remained
for too long to hurt anymore

it has become

part of my life
***

often finding you in others,
but I know its wrong
its wrong...
it just made me more and more upset each time

I'll never do that anymore

for I believe in myself

and in you too.

That if all these were meant to end

it would have ended earlier

for I know you wouldnt want me to suffer in silence
***

you would have known that
i mean every word i say
with all my heart

if it is only meant for you

words from the heart

dont just come out

all the time
***
you know that too

we need to talk

but we couldn't express ourselves

at least i couldn't

and i always wondered

what made the attraction lasts

i wonder, wonder and wandered

but in the end

i still held on to my belief.

am i just so dumb to do so?
***
i'm a smart dumb right...

tsk. silly me. but at least i've calmed down.