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This whole week have been quite hectic. Actually not so, but i just feel tired tired tired. Can't even remember what i did except that dumb stupid video that joelle sg singyan and I did for WISP. Too ashamed to post it up also... and of course Pat's birthday. I would say that he is feeling exactly how i'm feeling on my birthday too. But oh well, its history.

Anyway, sometimes i feel like the most unluckiest person on earth. Like, how u go everywhere and when u are there, the things suck. But after you leave, everything magically turns out for the better. The feeling is like: its fated that you do not belong there, should have left earlier... One case of course, in NPCB. Wonder where do i exactly belong to. Of course, I have some people to depend on. But it shouldn't always be the case.

Also I've made some really deteremined decisions this semester, like breaking free from my original group. One of the reasons was of course, i hated last minute work. Another reason is maybe because I felt that I'm not someone that they can rely on, but since nobody steps up, i help . But in the end i didn't feel that I've gained their trust and my work always suck. I'd rather work in a group, where I dont lead, people direct me, probably getting better results (even if they do not trust me as much for my work).

If Audrey were here in NP, we probably make a great team. I guess she's really someone to rely on sometimes. Though I've never exactly work with her for projects but i believe that she'll help me through thick and thin.

Oh my oh my... goodness gracious... Stop this emo-shit...!

(Need to faster finish up LSS. Guess what? Hate Susan.)